I will always remember the day I found out I was pregnant with my first child – it was a “dream come true” moment after years of wondering if it would ever happen for me. Looking down at the two lines on the pregnancy test, I literally jumped up and down and screamed with unbridled excitement. Months later, my overwhelming joy was capsized by an undercurrent of fear, fear that I might not survive childbirth. As a maternal health researcher with a focus on improving Black maternal health, I knew the statistics all too well. Black women in the United States face disproportionately high maternal mortality rates, and every related headline and tragic story in the news reminded me of that harsh reality.
Despite my professional background or maybe because of it, I found myself haunted by the possibility that I might become another statistic. I had nightmares about it and in many ways, I began preparing for the worst. I had explicit conversations with my loved ones about what to do if I didn’t make it out of labor and delivery alive. I even rehearsed scenarios with my partner in case he needed to advocate for me if I was in distress and no one was listening. Even as my body blossomed with new life, the persistent thought, “What if?” loomed large. By the end of my pregnancy, I’d reached a morbid sense of peace with the idea that giving life to my daughter might cost me my own.
When I finally delivered my baby and we went home together, a flood of relief poured over me, but I also remember being floored and agitated by the many ways the system can fail Black mothers. It's one thing to study it, it's an entirely different thing to experience it. Now through the lens of two personal births and four client births as a doula, I have seen firsthand how fragmented and impersonal our current model can be.
Here are the facts: maternal health in the United States is a critical public health concern and a poignant example of health inequity. Continuing a decades-long trend, the maternal mortality rate for non-Hispanic Black women is nearly 3 times higher than that of non-Hispanic white women. The perinatal period—the time from pregnancy to up to a year after birth—is a critical window for early identification of preventable conditions such as cardiovascular problems and mental health disorders, which collectively account for nearly 70% of maternal deaths but remain underdiagnosed and untreated among Black women. Moreover, given that most maternal illness or death occurs after birth, there is an urgent need to prioritize postpartum care and support to prevent unnecessary deaths and reduce disparities.